I knew him

What I hate the most about Christmas is the expectation. (Wow, tell us how you really feel.) People expect you to celebrate it the way they do. They expect you to LOVE it. And best of all, they just expect you to shell out hundreds of dollars of gifts to people who don't really know that much, that you talk to maybe once a year if that, just because. Its expected. Why? If I was religious it'd be one thing, but I'm not so it just seems like a big fucking waste of time, money, and anxiety medication. Of course, if I had any semblance of "family" I would probably feel differently about all holidays in general, but my family only gets together out of obligation. They don't care what they buy for each other, they just do it because its what you DO. And I just don't believe in that crap. I love buying people gifts and I work my ass off to get them something they actually want or like or need, but I'm the only one. I guess I'm still boggling after all these years why we spend the entire month of December stressed the hell out, then try and get it out of the way as fast as possible. Nobody cares, so why all the fuss? IDGI.

Man, I need to go to my happy place and chant or something. >_<

On the other hand, this is kind of beautiful.