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[withimpunity]

 I most certainly cannot deal with being me right now.

I'm freaking out for no apparent reason. My stomach keeps like, dropping. Idk. It feels like when you're really high up and you look down and you're stomach just falls.  But it keeps happening and I cannot DEAL WITH THIS.  I keep thinking stupid thoughts that do  good and try to think pleasant things and well, my brain thinks that is just not on, so more with the stupid, unpleasant thoughts and even more with the rollercoaster ride feelings in my tummy. And I can't sleep for the constant feeling of the world being pulled out from under me.. And the unpleasantries running rampant in my mind. And the not enough OXYGEN.

I understand when I freak out about things that normal people don't freak about, I do. But at least there are THINGS then. Nothing happened to me tonight, no one said anything, I didn't do anything. I'm just freaking for no god damn reason. Logic, to the left. 

Ugh.

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