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withimpunity) wrote2008-12-08 01:41 am
withimpunity) wrote2008-12-08 01:41 am
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why am I like this? WHAT is wrong with me? Why can't I just, you know, talk and act normal and BE normal and have fucking friends. Why is everything such a big fucking deal? Why do I have to go overboard in every aspect of my god damned life. Why is everything the end of the world? Why don't my drugs WORK? Why don't I want to go anywhere ever? Why am I afraid of people? Oh I know, because eventually they always figure out who I am. This. Me. Fucked up beyond repair and no fucking motivation to do anything about it AND NOBODY WANTS TO FUCKING DEAL WITH THAT SHIT. Nobody should.
So I'll just be here, overdramatizing everything like a motherfucking thirteen year old, eating my fattening toast and hot cocoa and immersing myself in things that aren't real, spending countless hours researching people that aren't real, anything so that I don't have to feel real. Yes, yes I will.
So I'll just be here, overdramatizing everything like a motherfucking thirteen year old, eating my fattening toast and hot cocoa and immersing myself in things that aren't real, spending countless hours researching people that aren't real, anything so that I don't have to feel real. Yes, yes I will.