Oh my god, McGee. *clings to you like a clingy thing*
So this is what happened before Sam left for Stanford...word for word. Huh.
I can't quote every part I liked, that knocked me upside the head and in the gut, cuz you know I'd be quoting the whole thing, right?
Those first three lines, though...they might just say it all.
This was epicly beautiful, hun, and painful and so totally the boys it made me want to start from the Pilot and watch all over again, looking for all evidence of this, what you've completely nailed on the head, captured in these lovely words of yours that I'm still kinda wrapped up in...
I want to read it again and again, but I don't want it to hurt :( Oh, boys. Why must they be so stupid and why can't they just love each other?
Oh, and this?
"I want you to come with me," Sam mutters under his breath, closing his eyes. "I don't want to leave, Dean." I don't want to leave you. "I want you to come too. I just can't - I can't stay here and watch you die."
...
"I can't leave Dad. He needs my help."
Both of them so selfish and selfless and screwed the fuck up, man. *shakes head* I really want to think this is why Sam left, that he said something like this, just like this, and Dean couldn't leave John, and couldn't leave Sam, but it was easier to see it as Sam leaving him, leaving them...
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Date: 2008-11-26 11:19 pm (UTC)So this is what happened before Sam left for Stanford...word for word. Huh.
I can't quote every part I liked, that knocked me upside the head and in the gut, cuz you know I'd be quoting the whole thing, right?
Those first three lines, though...they might just say it all.
This was epicly beautiful, hun, and painful and so totally the boys it made me want to start from the Pilot and watch all over again, looking for all evidence of this, what you've completely nailed on the head, captured in these lovely words of yours that I'm still kinda wrapped up in...
I want to read it again and again, but I don't want it to hurt :( Oh, boys. Why must they be so stupid and why can't they just love each other?
Oh, and this?
"I want you to come with me," Sam mutters under his breath, closing his eyes. "I don't want to leave, Dean." I don't want to leave you. "I want you to come too. I just can't - I can't stay here and watch you die."
...
"I can't leave Dad. He needs my help."
Both of them so selfish and selfless and screwed the fuck up, man. *shakes head* I really want to think this is why Sam left, that he said something like this, just like this, and Dean couldn't leave John, and couldn't leave Sam, but it was easier to see it as Sam leaving him, leaving them...
Okay, enough. I can has schmoop nao?